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Work Work Work.....

2009-08-13T11:54:00.000+08:00

Damn a lot of assignments and Damn little people to handle it all up...

FHM 2009 come at the worst timing ever. Damn

Disappointment, Chaos and Nothingness

2009-07-28T23:21:00.007+08:00

Futsal last night was, well, a disappointment. May it be in terms of management or players lack of will power, we went down, bitterly in the semi-finals. But it's unbelievable that we lost, considering out training sessions as well as good teamwork. Another factor that's not helping our excuse in losing was that the previous match, we demolished another team with a 10-0 score! So, what's WRONG? =( Anyhow, it's over, we still got another 3rd placing match this coming Monday. And I do hope that we manage to play equally, cos I don't appreciate the first team getting all the action and losing the plot in the end. Here are some pictures when we trashed the 1st rounders 10-0.

Next came Chaos. Today's timetable and groupings announcement was HELL. Literally HELL. Brilliant idea from the Academic Office for trying to fit 200-300 students waiting eagerly for the outcome of their French Group placings and also their class groupings in a SMALL and TINY alley at the 2nd floor, above the reception area. People were pushing, people that smells, people that somehow ALWAYS step on your feet and USE it for leverage are among those who were there today. Great. Please enlighten me WHY did I pay RM11,500 for my blardy school fees to get this kind of SHIT.

Finally came nothingness. LOL. Yeap, you guessed it right. I've nothing interesting to report except that I'm gonna have my supper now. Anybody wanna join? =)

Oh the Monday Blues~~

2009-07-27T20:04:00.007+08:00

Another boring Monday had almost past. Orientation had always been and will always be a tedious event. What's worse, French placement test was kinda easy. I used to 'pretend' on 'not-knowing-the-answer' for most exams, but this one, heh, it's vice versa. I actually have to fake it to pass where it matters most to me. I don't want advanced French classes...... >.<

However, I tried to make things more interesting by snapping another two pictures of my Transformers collection. Two of my favorites, Mixmaster and Rampage! These two are very well made and have loads of pose-ability due to its many articulation points. For example, Mixmaster's arms have FIVE articulation points!

Plus, I've confirmed my booking for EZ Collection Devastator set, the Ice-Cream truck Deluxe class, Swerve Deluxe class and finally, Long Haul Voyager class today. =)Can't wait to pick them up!

Unfortunately, Optimus Prime and Jetfire Leader class are out of my reach due to financial difficulties T.T

MixMaster

Rampage

Tonight will also be interesting, Futsal Tournament starts! I sure hope we at least get through the semis and be able to play again on August 3rd, next Monday.

My jersey!

Lastly, I would like to let you all in a video clip on Luis in which I was accused by another colleague of mine of snoring so loudly. I redeemed myself with this clip. =P

Sorry Luis, I just advertised you LOL.

I'm Back?

2009-07-26T22:35:00.005+08:00

Well, I think I'm back =P

The hiatus is being kept far too long. And now, I think I'm kinda free at the moment =)

College is starting tomorrow and guess what? There's no damn schedule! All of us don't even know what time are we supposed to be in college tomorrow.

Besides that, I've been working on my Transformers collection for sometime already =) Mostly are from the Transformers movie Part 1 and Part 2. Sorts of revived my Transformers fanaticism when I was a child. It still breaks my heart when my 'cousin' broke my Sixshot's leg and superglued it together so it can still stand up >.<

I'm not giving away anymore Transformers cos they are MINE!=P

Here are some Previews from my collection so far, will post them up again sometime soon. Below are the Twins, SKids (Green) and Mudflap (Orange).

Well, today I was rounding again around Amcorp and Pyramid trying to 'skodeng' for more releases of the Transformers ROTF toys, I ended up getting my own Birthday present =) A pair of Nike white/lime green shoes! My old pair, the Nike Free 7.0 is falling apart and one piece I've had left it in Genting Highlands two weeks ago =( Must have been at the Highlands Casino.

That's it for the 1st update in all these months. Hope to see more of me on my blog too. LOL.

Updates for the past one month....

2009-03-25T09:19:00.002+08:00

Hie there again,

It's been a month, busy with exams and yeah, more exams. The worst part is it's the FINALS! It's the FINAL countdown..... So reminds me of that dramatic song XD

But, but, I'm finishing SOON! Like this Thursday! Then it's a 3 month break for me! I really need one.. XD

Yesterday was bullshit, car got jacked in, didn't noticed anything at first, cos the doors were locked. As I opened the door, my car interior was in a mess, like letting a baby run havoc in your car.. (-.-) Nothing gone, BUT, Jasmin lost her backpack. A black Nutrilite backpack. All her assignments and notes as well as her scientific and financial calculators, all GONE. The asses who did this must have thought it's a laptop bag and so coincidentally, it was HEAVY.. F**king smart ass buggers, took off, leaving my items in the boot untouched and instead, all the papers which is useless for them to loot. Idiots and Irresposible assholes, no forgiveness from me, mark my words, if I ever catch another son-of-a-bitch that did this again, I'm gonna beat the crap out of you and make sure your damned children won't recognise your f**cked-up face.

Sheesh, that sure let out some steam inside. Overall, I'm fine, and Jasmin too, after a period of time. Thanks Nick Foo and Vincent (Ass-Canceric Son of Mine) for efforts of helping. Appreciate that. Just don't let me get my hands on those SOBs..

Finally!

2009-02-26T12:11:00.003+08:00

I've been delaying this post for a while since the 19th of February, because I didn't have the time to post it up or I wasn't in the right mood. I feel this post is extra special as it's a momentuous day in my life, and I certainly don't want to ruin it in any other way.

Come 19th February 2009, I'm finally 'off' the shelves. Yes, I'm CONFIRMED to be dating Jasmin Lim. All those time before, when if you guys seen us together were just mere 'speculation'. Even some friends of mine and hers called up just to CONFIRM it again. XD. Haha. Is it so HARD to believe that me and her are seeing each other now?

A long going process i think, 5 months. None the less, a very fruitful one in my perspective. It was a long time coming. It wasn't easy for her to decide I guess. She really wants to make it work, and she needs time for a cool down period and all, and I respected her for that and I waited. Plus, on top of that she's damn straight forward to pin point my mistakes! It's a good thing ok? Some people just beat round the bush all day long and still haven't come up with a solution. She keeps saying I live in denial, I SO am NOT!

There I go, in denial again. LOL.

I also remembered she wanted to say yes on 14th February, but decided to postpone it to the 19th. If it was on the 14th, haha, I can do a 2 in 1 celebration yearly! XD She screwed me nicely for that!

*Just kidding Boo!*

I really hope we can go the distance, even though she's always skeptical that the future holds good things in store for us. As me being the optimistic one and she's the pessimist, you see now why we are meant to be together?

Haha!

Lastly Boo, I really enjoyed that the time we spent together and you are very special and dear to me. I'll certainly make time for you, and hopefully you do that for me too, especially when your uni starts again. I'll understand if you are really busy ok? Don't force yourself. You'll always reign in my heart and no one can take that place, aite?

*wink wink*

I love you forever!

p/s: Finally can post this without the 1.4.3.7!

An Update at Last??

2009-02-13T14:09:00.004+08:00

It has been 33 days exactly since my last post (>.<) Chinese New Year had came and gone, and soon it will be Valentine's Day. Now the Islam had forbid their believers to celebrate Valentine's Day as it is against their religion! What else could possibly happen then? =P

Now then, I had been sick mostly through out Chinese New Year, and yeah, it sucks. Kinda accurate though, that my zodiac predicts that I'm under an 'Illness Star' crap jack sh*t. Well, hopefully, the rest of the year would be good though.

*keeping fingers crossed*

I had been eating lots of food too! CNY cookies, syabu syabu, and a whole lot of other stuffs! I actually put on around 5kgs thanks to the good food XD

And I got a new phone! YIPPIE-KAI-YAY! Although it's not the phone that I was expecting to get, and PLUS, I was already impatient to wait any longer for it.

*It's funny that I'm patient for any other things, but not when I buy new toys T.T*

*And 'someone' was getting agitated due to the fact that I kept asking for her opinion on buying the phone now or later XD*

I got the Sony Ericsson G705. Good phone, although initial reviews claim that the phone have a lot of issues with the screen and software. I didn't experience such problems from the phone so far. Initially used as a 'smartphone' competitor, hence the code 'G' series, I don't find my phone that 'smart' after all. LOL. It's too normal to begin with. No Symbian OS or Windows OS too. Just a regular Sony Ericsson OS.

The W705 looks good too, but sorry, I can't wait any longer! So the PLUS points of this phone includes Wi-Fi and it's real flat. Camera is not too bad PLUS it has a flash! Down points? Only supplied with 1Gb M2 memory card. I was expecting at least a 2Gb M2 card. Internal storage memory is at 120mb! NICE~ Much better than the W902 that I was aiming all this while.

Ratings? 7.5 out of 10

As an end note, I think I'll just save up again to get that 'dastardly' W902.. I hope I can, and hopefully the price drops too! XD If not, a W910i would to just fine as well!

Over and out!

All I want for CNY

2009-01-10T01:34:00.007+08:00

I've been eye-balling this phone for a week now. It's much better than the one that I was eye-balling for the past 2 months. XD Hopefully, the price drops further than I anticipated for an AP set. Wheee~~!

If anybody have an idea of the price, please do let me know kays! I wanna do a price comparison before getting it XD

I WANT I WANT I WANT!!!

T.T

Time is of Essense

2009-01-07T21:35:00.003+08:00

College had just started and the prospect of looking forward for Chinese New Year is looking bleak.

Why?

7 papers separate me from the Very Honorable Pass with Congratulations from Jury level, AGAIN.

IMHO, I'm SO DEAD. What's that word? Oh yea, GG-FIED...

Need all the strength and support I need to push through one more time.

Darn, I'm not as young as I used to be. My brain is running out of space (>.<) Methinks, me need a friggin' portable hard-drive to save all my data. Term 1-6 Diploma level + Term 4-6 Higher Diploma level. I can't 'wait' for Degree level exams....

*pats on shoulder*

Gambatte-neh, I feel you Terence =P

Over the Next Few Days

2009-01-02T01:55:00.002+08:00

The final few days of enjoyment prior to the next decisive term 6 of my Higher Diploma studies. I still need to clean my room. LOL. Procrastinate like F**K over the last 2 weeks about it. (>.<) AND my car needs a wash real badly.....

Hopefully JK comes up with the planning of the next clubbing session soon. I can't wait to enjoy myself! Me guess it should be on Saturday, and hopefully I can get a reunion back with my old school mates soon. I admit I relegated them over my ex previously. Perhaps a chance of reconcilation? A LONG awaited yum char session with Mich is also in the works, hopefully during the weekend as well. And finally another yum char session with Julia, whom I owed so much for her effort over the last 2 months. I'm sorry I put you through this ok?

*keeps fingers crossed*

Next term, I can't afford to fool around already. After all, it's the term that matters the most. Last decisive term for practical course and hopefully, a good 4 month hiatus! WHEEE~!

THAT, I CAN'T WAIT.. XD

Go somewhere far to work perhaps? Overseas if I'm lucky? Event Management? I need to see the world, I can't be a a 'frog under a coconut shell' anymore. It's time for my eyes to be opened! On a second note, somewhere respectable and good pay and nice collegues would be nice as well XD

Finally on the end note, I'm on a 1 week 'break' with her. She needs time for herself, family and friends and it's good that we take 'five' to backtrack on each others strengths and weaknesses. I admire her for her insight and also her maturity in this matter. And it further enforces my resolve that we may have a big chance of succeeding in this 'proposed' relationship. As for my own weaknesses, I need a greater determination to iron it out so that I can present myself as a better and more understanding person in her eyes. It's for my own effort that I'm willing to go through this and not because that I was forced to. She has her own life to live and so do I. I guess we can go the distance huh, babe?

*smiles*

1.4.3.7.

New Year Blues

2009-01-01T01:03:00.002+08:00

Sigh, New Year Eve alone again. No plans, nothing.

Heck, my birthday was also the same. Sometimes, I find it's good to have some company around. I'm not trying to say that I'm pathetic so that everybody can symphatize me.

I just wished I can spend the entire 'special' day with the ones I love. Now, I'm just sitting here in front of the sad laptop, downing as much whiskey as I can take. Hopefully, I can pass out even before I send my post out.

I know there are people worse off than me at this time, but they aren't in my position and I'm not in theirs. Everybody have a story to tell. Where's my story then? Oh, I'm sorry. You don't have one to tell. Right.

Hmm..

I hope she's doing fine. I hope she's enjoying herself. I hope things would work out for us. Many more 'I hopes' that I would want to see come true. Most importantly, I hope she comes home safe and sound.

I don't have much say in her life. Basically, I'm a nobody in her life. I can't control nor comment. I have no right to do so. But what I can do is that, I'll always be on a lookout for her. Catching her when she falls, saving her when she needs help, be all that she needs. I guess I'm just selfish. I guess I think about myself. But I still think alot on her part. Providing her the necessary comfort and support that she needs.

Sigh..

Wishing all the best and prosperous New Year 2009 to all my friends and family members. Hoping you guys have the best of it as I can say, 2008 sucks.

Really.

Period.

Something Interesting =)

2008-12-30T22:45:00.005+08:00

Bored + Nothing on TV/DVD + Internet Line = Surf!

Surfed many blogs till I got to my Cuz blog, looks pretty interesting XD Don't worry, I won't Tag people for it, only this time =P

See? I'm actually 'kind' and 'considerate' ROFL

A-Z

A.Attached or single? Single but unavailable? =P

B. Best friend? Can it be friend'S'? Got a few to name though..

C. Cake or pie? Definitely pie! But you'll get my attention on cakes if it's Indulgence from Secret Recipe!!

D. Day of choice? Friday of course! Clubs are happening and colleges take a break!

E. Essential item? Again, Item'S'. Handphone, Wallet, Car Keys, House Keys. MONEY too!

F. Favorite color? Black? White? Red? Orange? Sorry yo, Me can't decide..

G. Gummy bears or worms? Neither? =P Not on my diet list

H. Hometown? Malacca, place of binge eating till I landed in the hospital for gastritis >.<

I. Favorite indulgence? Too many to list? YES! Eating!! =D

J. January or July? July! Another month to my birthday! *hint hint*

K. Kids? Ideal number of kids? o.O That's for my wife to decide...

Life isn't complete without? Entertainment and Food!

M. Marriage date? Wah.. o.O Doubtful at the moment..

N. Number of magazine subscriptions? Zero, Nil, Kosong.

O. Oranges or apples? Neither? But will pick Apples over Oranges if forced to.

P. Phobias? Arachnophobia. F**king SPIDERS!! Disgusting, vile creatures..

Q. Quotes? Mangkuk!! , SERIOUS?

R. Reasons to smile? When people enjoy the food that I brought them to? Seeing that 'someone' eat XD

S. Season of choice? Winter!! I wanna see SNOW..

T. Tag 10 people. HAHA.. BEG ME NOT TO TAG THOSE WHO'S READING THIS NOW XD

U. Unknown fact about me? I'm kind and considerate? >.< style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);" size="4">carnivore! Rawr!

W. Worst habit? I got lots of gas XD Both 'exit' points are 'versatile' at disposal ROFL

X. X-ray or ultrasound? X-ray! Credit goes to Sony for creating the see-thru cameras!

Y. Your favorite foods? Anything sinful.. =D

Z. Zodiac sign? LEO! The proud, arrogant, LOA chracter! But with a soft, passionate and loyal side.. Aww.. HAHAHA

He/she have to come up with 7 interesting or random facts about them self and then tag 7 other people to do the same.
1. I don't look 24 >.<>don't take me seriously..
2. I know a more random person than me XD
3. I'm good looking? NOW that's RANDOM!
4. I 'm straight? T.T I REALLY am...
5. I love clothes and shoes but I don't have a friggin' sense of fashion.
6. I'm a sucker for shoes and jackets =.=
7. I'm actually picky for food (I recently just found out about this)

That 'should' be all for now XD

Adios Amigos!

Resolutions?

2008-12-30T22:20:00.002+08:00

Methinks it's time to make so New Year Resolutions as it had been a tradition of mine XD

Don't blame me if I procrastinate on some of it, goes in no relative order..

1. New phone! (so hate my old phone now, can't even talk properly on it)

2. New player for car and some decent woofer! (long time I had planned this, but no follow-ups)

3. Higher Diploma Congrats from Jury again! (need to upkeep my standards yo!)

4. Cut down in ciggies (hope to stop completely by mid-year)

5. Planning ahead! (too many disappointments in last minute pre-preparation)

6. Hmm.. Be more contented with life and what I got? >.<

Sigh, New Year = New Obstacles

Hopefully it'll be better then the last and I really hope on some 'good' news too......

Updates

2008-12-26T21:37:00.002+08:00

Darn, I've been slacking in my blog these few days XD Too many things to do, really! I'm still alive and kicking! Been to many new places to eat, some disappointing, some really good.

I've also just had my maiden visit to Aquaria KLCC today. A tad disappointing but none the less, the company had been good, rite? =)

Apart from that, pictures, so many of them, still not uploaded yet, more time needed to do so. Partly some of the pictures are stored in other cameras too...

That's all for now, time for my next culinary experience! Malacca! Wheeeeeee~!

P.S. Hope I don't repeat the horrible incident when I last went to Malacca for binge eating >.<

Truly Happy

2008-12-22T20:10:00.002+08:00

Woes begone and HappyVille enters. That is what I truly feel when 'you' are around. 'You' are the joy of my life, and none can take it away from me.

*I hope*

1.4.3.7.

Dead Serious

2008-12-20T20:38:00.002+08:00

People do not seem to take me seriously. Why? Is it because of my babyish or boyish look? Is it my character itself? Is it my fault to begin with? Hmm..

Sometimes people just don't understand how serious am I. Beneath the humor and un-serious-like characteristics which I am usually known for, I can be dead serious if I'm up to it. It's just that, I don't show it to everybody. Just take it that I'm shy. ROFL..

Am I serious about studies? Am I serious about life? Am I serious about 'you'? You bet I am. I've not done anything more serious in my whole life than this. Trying so hard to prove myself will make things worse. I think, some things should be seen under its own natural light. If I'm to point to 'you' where to look, it'll be too easy for 'you', don't 'you' think so? =)

Although trust is not easily earned, I believe 'you' have trusted me to a certain degree now. I know its not easy to trust someone, and I don't intend to make 'you' lose your trust in me. I really do. After all, it's not easy to regain a trust, right?

*hugs*

1.4.3.7.

Feelings

2008-12-12T17:51:00.002+08:00

Dear you-know-who-you-are

I'm here for you
I'll always be there for you
May it be
sad or happy
ups or downs

My heart hears yours
I can hear the rhythm
of the pains and joys
that you go through

My heart is filled with pain
seeing you when you are down

My heart leaps with joy
whenever you smiled and laughed

Though I can't
be able to carry your burden
But I assure you
I'll walk down the same path
with you

I'll guide you
protect you
(even though I'm small sized)

I'll be your friend
Your closest, bestest buddy
(though a 'slightly' pervertic one)

I'll be your beacon during a storm
I'll be your blanket when you are cold
I'll be anything that I can be for you

It's a privilege
to be in your life
though I'm not part of it
as of yet

I know how you are
I know how you react
But I want to know you more
so I can understand you better and better

I'll try my best to be the best
I'll do my best to impress
I'll work hard for the future
hopefully to be shared with you

God gave us a chance to meet
A chance to know each other
Knowing someone better forms trust
Trust is the base of a relationship
Relationship strives on understanding
Understanding the love that we share is sacred

Understand this
chances like this don't come by everyday
The 'somebody' in my life is you
I don't have to think who would it be anymore
For I know surely, certainly, it's you

A chance is all I need
to prove I'm all you need

1.4.3.7

Gotta Be Somebody

2008-12-11T21:35:00.002+08:00

I just love this song. I used to think there's somebody out there for me. Now,and finally I know, I've found that 'somebody'. My heart will stay steadfast, and wait for the moment till you are ready to accept me and allow me to share your life.

1.4.3.7.

1 Broken Phone, 1 Car Accident

2008-12-10T23:39:00.002+08:00

Sorry guys, been away too long. So many things happened to me for the past few weeks. But this week was so far the worst.

Yesterday, my phone broke into TWO. YES. Into TWO. I was holding the phone in one hand and got some other stuffs on the other hand. I called my friend and she 'thought' that I was gonna poke her sides, and she SWUNG her hands in self defense. What happened next was a blur, seeing a white object flying by my eyes. Before I realised, my phone shattered around 7 feet about away from me, parts of it flying to Timbuktu. My friend and me both just stood there for a few seconds contemplating what had happened.

WAH!!

That was my first impression. I tried to salvage the wreck, LOL, the effort was too futile. It was beyond repair. Now, my phone is dangling by the wire, and I can't answer calls too. Only SMS is available. Thank God.

Now, today. I haven't slept for the past 2 days. Yes, I'm grouchy and emo-ed, most important of all, I can't keep my concentration for long. What happened was, I decided to take a short nap around 430am after I found articles for my slides. Set my alarm and poofed! I KO-ed the moment my head hit the pillow. No surprises that I woke up late. 730am in fact. Rushed through my stuff and headed out my house.

Then my grandma told me on the way out in Hokkien; 'Drive safe'.

Barely 5 minutes later, by the SS19 intersection, I rammed into the car in front of me and it set off a chain reaction to the car ahead of the car that I rammed into. The thoughts that ran through my head was 'Oh F**k' and 'You gotta be kidding me!' Glasses shattered from my broken headlamps and I was using profanities for all its worth. Parked aside and got out to inspect the damage, I was going 'What the F**k' the whole while.

The car I rammed was so perfectly unharmed and so was the car that was further up front. My poor car was the only and thankfully ONLY casualty in this incident. Settled the cost and sorts with the other victim and continued my rush to college. Damn, if it weren't for my accident, I WOULD had made it on time! >.<

Well, that's life, get over it.

Not all things should be viewed in the bad way. Just that a 'dear friend of mine' mentioned that we focused more of bad things rather than the good things. That doesn't mean that our lives had been on a stroke of bad luck. Thinking back, I think it was an OK week after all. =)

It's SO TRUE!

2008-12-10T23:24:00.001+08:00

Congratulations Terence, you are...

Lainie Yeoh of tabulas.com/~lainie

You are funny, smart, experimental, sarcastic and artistic. You can be mean and obnoxious if you want to but most the time you're just a soft, romantic and sentimental person. Come to think of it, you are kinda like a durian - hard and thorny on the outside, but soft and sweet (not smelly) on the inside. You're always getting into trouble whether you like it or not. Your friends play a big part in your life and rightfully so because you'll never give up an opportunity to help them out if they ask. You are the life of the party.

Which Malaysian Blogger Are You?

I NEED UPDATES!!

2008-12-09T00:07:00.002+08:00

Sorry Peeps! Been busy for the past God-knows-HOW many days and I desperately NEED to update my BLOG.. >.<

Gimme TIME yo?

Orphanage

2008-11-30T14:49:00.013+08:00

Yesterday we hit the orphanage as part of the 'criteria' required by the college to pass our Entrepeneur subject. Well, the conditions are depressing, but we hope our visit did actually lift them up alil bit. Let the pictures describe the visit.

Irene and Amie sharing a kid, literally! Check out the kid being split into two by a glitch XD

The kid in blue is damn LOA.. He just grabs any passer-by and Kiver got 'caught' by him for a full 20 minutes!

Shawn's reaction when we said he was to breastfeed the child.. HAHA..

This poor kid was fed through a tube, and the way the caretakers handle them was not a sight for the soft hearted.. really..

The next two pictures were actually taken by an orphan, she knows how to take pictures!

She really make me look good! XD

We had our moments also!

This wheelchaired bound girl pinches, high-fives and grabs anything that moves! She also likes to laugh alot!

Conclusion and lesson learnt?

Count your blessings and be thankful that you are 'normal' and have loving parents that won't give you up for anything in the world. The orphans deserve better, really.

Chocolates, 'Signature' Dishes and Advert

2008-11-27T22:53:00.014+08:00

Took some pictures over the week, check it out.

These are the Cappucino Chocolate cups! Pricey but worth every cocoa powder in it! *I only ate the handle*

TORTOISE! XD

So many colors..

Roses and more Roses!

Pineapples! I really admire how they colored the pineapple skin on it~

Raspberry Hearts and...

Blueberry Hearts!

Then comes the 'signature' dishes from an 'amateur-chef-in-the-making' XD

I noticed that she was kinda artistic.

LMAO

Rather itchy hand also.

Try guessing what they are aite?

First 'Signature' Dish

Second 'Signature' Dish

And finally, I participated in the Shell Fuel Saving tips campaign and got MY picture on an advert in Shell! XD

See! Me in the red cap far left! XD

Up to My Neck

2008-11-27T22:28:00.004+08:00

I want to go on a break! I want HOLIDAYS! I want to SLEEP!

I WANT I WANT I WANT I WANT!!

'Wake up Dumb Dumb'

"Who's that? Who are you? Why are you in my head??"

'Mine name is of no importance to thee. Thou shalt be dealt with a cruel blow if thine mind is not set towards thy ideals. It is mine regret that thou shalt die prematurely if this doth continues.'

"What?! GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!"

'It wilt be as thy wish so, for I can only do so much for thee. Take care mine son, guard thy mind and soul from being wretched from under thy nose. Thy heart hath already been captured, and no other ways to restore thy heart, unless, thy join me in My kingdom, till the end of days.

'As you say so la' (>.<)

I'm so bored that I came up with these archanic conversation. Too much fantasy reading already XD

*chop chop*

Time to get up and going!

An Emo Freak with Feelings

2008-11-26T12:29:00.004+08:00

Why do people say that I'm an emo freak? (>.<) I certainly am not!

Might be due to the fact that projects and assessments are all piling up on me at the moment. Plus, with the ever persistant back aches that I have been experiencing since 2 weeks ago? It's really killing me T.T No wonder I'm abit moody.

Describe my feelings on my blog? o.O How so? Am I not expressive enough? Some feelings are meant to be private, and this blog is SO in the public's eye! But none the less, I'm as transparent as ever, all can see through me and that doesn't make me the world's best liar.

Luckily, I'm still wearing clothes XD

BAH! That was so RANDOM...

I'm so sick and tired of college work. This is definitely the most strenuous term I'm facing so far. Everything is backlogged. Even one for today. I wished I can cuddle up and sleep, and forget about the world for a moment. Let me rest my mind for a moment. Too many things swaying in and out of my puny cranium. I really need a break. Somewhere that doesn't remind me of college. Or simply, a nice comfy bed. Being at home is also not peaceful.

*I wished 'you' were here with me*

Wake up Stupid. Thy impeding doom is a-coming.

There goes the spoiler, anti-climax, potong steam, whatever-you-want-to-call-it. I want to procrastinate for another day.

Just one more, please?

Alas, the worst has hit, hopefully, I hope it's the worst. ANY more of it, I don't think I'll be a cocky bast**d any longer =)

*I just want to spend time with 'you'. I really do. Take care. Hugs*

Counting down the 1st day of next 7 days

Alone in the Dark

2008-11-24T21:24:00.003+08:00

Being alone is terrible. I hate being alone. I despise the fact so much, that I even hate to have my meals alone. Not to point out the fact that I'm LOA (Lack Of Attention), but try to be in my shoes. It's also not to mention that I don't have friends, on the contrary, I have lots of caring ones. The loneliness is not felt physically, rather, mentally.

I don't want to be this way. I don't want to feel this way. The emptiness was briefly filled, never had I felt so glad and happy about it, but it would be vacanted soon, briefly for the least. During the brief moments, I felt the glimpse of light, like the one at the end of a dark and long tunnel. Now, as I walked on the shadowy path, the light still shines, but unlogically getting dimmer. I tried running to it, yet I can't catch up with it. I'm resolute enough not to give up. Somehow, it kept slipping through my fingers.

I know it's possible to work out. I know it, from the bottom of my puny little heart. However, the fact always remain. No dance is complete without a partner, nor no sound will be heard if only one hand is trying to clap. Help me understand better, why is it this way. I want things to work out. In fact, I'll go to hell and back to prove myself and my worth in this.

Sigh.

I hope and I pray, and all my prayers rests in God's palms, that it's possible to work this out together. Being all that I'm worth, I'm nothing in God's eyes. All that, adds to the gloom and emo-ness that had been clouding my mind at the moment. But, I'll remain steadfast and confident in the matter. Hopefully, this would last me though the end of days, or shorter, the end of my life.

I don't want to lose 'you'. 'You' know how I feel as well. 'You' know me well enough, close enough, I hope. Hope 'you' know that, it's never too late.

I hope that the month of November slip by quietly and December would be a new ray of light shining through my dim, colorless life.

-1.4.3-

BORED but yet Occupied

2008-11-22T12:27:00.003+08:00

It's strange and ironic that I'm feeling so BORED at the moment, but as I am aware, there are alot of things for me to do or planned for the remainder of the month. Strange isn't it? Does it happen to you too?

I find that we can find time, only IF we want to find it. There's no such thing as no time, unless we procrastinate like crazy. Yes, we may be busy, but nobody is TOO busy. Try to find time to cherish life as it's short. Even though we may live up to a 100 years old, we aren't guaranteed before hand that we were 'supposed' to love till that old.

I wished I have more time to do things that I wanted to do. Like spending time with that certain 'someone' (provided IF she has time for me >.<), traveling to places that I sorely miss, hanging out with familiar faces that I have not seen for a long time and so many others. If I list it down, it would have probably flooded the page. But then again, who hasn't wished for more time before?

Where does time go? When did it even left us? Why is it in such a hurry? What pressing engagement is more important to it compared to us? How can we slow it down? These will the some of the questions that would had been better off not being answered. For I'm sure, our puny, little brains would take an eternity to understand or comprehend it. Time definitely has the upper hand in this one.

Time is of essence. Time and tide waits for no man.

Well, time to procrastinate abit to make it pass by faster XD

Condolences

2008-11-21T23:47:00.003+08:00

Reaching out to Wong Choy Yee and family for the demise of her father. Even though I have not met him before, I'm sure he was a great dad, and had brought up my friend Choy Yee to great heights.

He'll be sorely missed by all whom had known him throughout his life and theirs.

Pray that the heavens receive him and let his family be relieved from grief and be glad that he's gone to a place where there's no suffering and pain. They will be reunited as a family, one day in the future.

For now, live out the rest of your lives to the fullest, for not knowing when it's our time. You'll never know when would be your last time to say goodbye to your loved ones.

Life is precious, don't waste it.

Missing You

2008-11-21T22:22:00.004+08:00

This song is exactly how I feel at the moment. Dedicated to those who misses their loved ones.

Oh oh Oh I'm missin' you
Baby I'm missin' you

oh oh oh oh
Baby I'm missing you

Things'll never be the same without you...

What did I do to deserve this
I didn't even get one last kiss, from you
Oh baby God took your love from me
He needed an angel so it seems
I need to feel your hands all over me
I need to feel you kissing me
I need to feel you holding me
I need to feel your touch
Cause I miss your love so much
And I can't keep on living this way
I need you here with me
Why could he take you away, from me

It's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself

I would've given you anything
Just to make you happy
Just to hear you say, that you love me one last time
I'd go to hell and back over and over again
Just to prove to you how much I need you here
There is nothing that I wouldn't do
I'd cry for you
I'd lie for you
And there's no doubt that if I could take your place in heaven
I would die for you, yes I will
I would rather give up my life
Than to see tears in your eyes
I can't stand to see you cry

Cause it's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay babe
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself

I just don't know what to do with myself
I cant stand looking at those pictures on my shelf
Knowing it was just one week ago, i stood there and took that picture
There's just one thing that I wanna know
Why would God want to hurt me so bad,
Does He know how much it hurts to be missing you
Baby Im missing you
Baby Im missing you
I love you

Oh God damn it I love you
Why did he take you away... from me
Cause I love you so...
I miss you so much baby I just can't go on baby

Finally, Being Happy

2008-11-19T21:33:00.004+08:00

It had been a while

since

I had been happy

I can truly say

that

I am happy at the moment

Things worked out great

even though

with some minor mishaps

in between

I just

don't want it to end

Let's give it a chance

for magic to happen

For I believe

this was meant to be

Let me lead you

down the road

Guide you

Protect you

Do all I can

and could

just

to make you happy

as how

You had made me happy

What a Day..

2008-11-17T20:39:00.004+08:00

I couldn't even fathom how today would turn out. Firstly, woke up with a sorer back than ever, nonetheless, still had to get to college. Full day to boot. Had French listening test and was, well, overwhelmed by the obscure format and hard to understand French accent blaring out from the speakers. Even Ms Alvina wasn't helpful to at least provide a suitable reply to answer the second part of the exam. All she did was she just kept repeating that this was a listening test and so? LISTEN!

Sigh

What's next? Went for lunch at Padi and when my food came I pushed my chair back a little to avoid food stain on my clothes, my chair's leg got into a small, puny hole behind me and guess what? I shifted my weight on that leg and toppled backwards with my lower back kissing the floor first. Great! Friends were laughing hysterically at that point. The fall did aggrevate my back further, giving me not only shoulder and neck ache, but also lower spine too.

Sigh

Anything else? Going through the last two classes was painful for me. Lower back and upper all stiff and sore. Asked my friend to help give a crack at my lower back to help relieve abit of the pain but ended up getting it done wrongly. And I ended with an even sorer back. Luckily, class ended early due to another assessment and had decided to go fix my back with my hairdresser. Alas, she's closed today, I'm really having GoldFish Memory Syndrome (GMS). That's it, no help can do for my back for today.

Sigh

November is beginning to look bleak for me. Methinks, it'll be the longest month for me this year. Nice one la..

What? Another Tag? >.<

2008-11-16T19:51:00.002+08:00

What a coincidence.. got tagged after visiting a 'dead' blog!! (>.<)

Rules?

NO TAG BACKS

10 years ago I was :

- In Form 2, and started behaving sloppily, baggy and dropping pants the craze going on then
- 1st year aniversary that I started smoking (=.=) Price that time was still RM 4.80!
- Had my 1st love, but didn't last long, she's older by a year XD
- Joined a gang, stupid move by the way
- the tallest among my friends (shut up, I know better NOW)

5 years ago I was :

- Flunked my Form 6, wasn't interested then.
- Met my 2nd ex along the way.
- Actually almost on the way to quitting smoking for 2 years.
- Being more truant and more hard headed.
- Started playing online games : RO and Maple (=.=)

1 year ago I was :

- Passed my Diploma with Congratulations from the Jury XD
- Got into my 1st major accident, best part? It was not my car. (>.<)
- Still in a relationship with my 3rd ex.
- Smoking like a chimney, remembered that alot of people tried to help me stop, instead, they started smoking as well now XD If you can't beat the system, Join IT!
- Realised that I'm a blardy old fart already (>.<)

Yesterday I was :

- Busy taking care of a sick person XD
- Reading part 2 of my Fantasy novels
- Enjoyed my McShaker Fries! Then sick person had to go home, I tapau-ed and got McSoggy Fries in the end (=.=)
- Blogging after procrastinating for so long.
- Out the whole day and morning.

5 most recent songs I listen to :

- Secondhand Serenade - Fall for You
- Trance Generators - Do You Want A Balloon?
- Baby Bash - Cyclone
- Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest
- My Chemical Romance - Famous Last Words

5 songs I know the words to :

- Secondhand Serenade - Fall for You
- 1st Lady - Missing You
- Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest
- Timberland - The Way I Are
- Breaking Benjamin - The Diary of Jane

5 ideal places to run away to :

- Some island with beautiful sandy beaches, clear blue water and great accomodation!
- Any major city in Japan
- Rome! Can do sightseeing at the same time
- Somewhere that you can be king of the lands XD
- No where, get into a car and hop from place to place, I'm supposed to be running right?

5 items I really want :

- Proton Satria Neo M-line / Perodua Myvi 1.3SXi SE (new) / A Turbo-ed Car
- Sony Ericsson w980 / Apple iPhone
- Limitless and no-need-to-pay-back Credit Card
- A state-of-the-art Laptop
- A American Pool Table (T.T)

5 things i should be doing now :

- Procrastinate on this TAG
- Eating my dinner
- Taking a shower, going out soon?
- Finish my 2nd part of my Fantasy novel
- Completing this stupid TAG

5 biggest joys in life :

- Having great friends I've met along the way.
- Succeeding with flying colors in exams.
- Meeting a person that I know is the 'One'.
- Knowing the fact that I'm already 24 and the responsibilities that comes along with it.
- Being independent bit by bit, away from parents' burden.

5 people im tagging :

- Beatrix Ong
- Jasmin Lim
- Cheryl Ong
- Pauline Sim
- Amber Tan

Mangkuk! Another Tag >.<

2008-11-15T22:59:00.003+08:00

VERY NICE! Moi dumb dumb sister avoids all the flak I throw at her and she threw one back at me! NICE ONE LA! Make sure you prepare for some ass whooping when you get back home from your hole in Sabah..

No Rules for this one. Just answer the questions.

1. Do you think you're HOT?
What a question to start with. (>.<) erm.. erm.. am I hot? I think I should put a poll on my blog and let that decide.. But.. What the heck? I got thick skin, and that concludes that I WILL ADMIT that I'm HOT! ROFL

2. Upload your favourite picture of you

3. Why do you like that picture?
I like it because it's EMO! XD Just felt that this picture really reflect what I was thinking and feeling at that moment.

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
GOSH! I don't remember! (>.<) Speaking of which, I really crave for Pizza now!! (T.T)

5. The last song you listened to?
My Chemical Romance - Famous Last Words
Damn EMO-rocker song XD

6. What are you doing now besides this?
Reading Tenjou Tenge manga at www.onemanga.com and listening to songs and updating Facebook and checking over-dued e-mails.

7. What name would you prefer besides yours?
I think I'm too used to my name already, but considering the fact that alot of people mispronounced my name makes me wanna change it previously to Terry. Until I found out it was a chick's name (>.<) And thus I gave up.

People to tag:

- Jasmin Lim (do only after your exams)
- Tristan Ng
- Amber Tan
- Pauline Sim
- Mabel Spykerman

8. Who is number one?
A girl who definitely and without fail knows my weakspots (>.<)

9. Number 3 is having a relationship with?
An imaginary relationship with Iker Casillas (Hope I get the name right this time)

10. Say something about number five.
Mabel? Hmm, One of my daughters but had left and dumped us pursuing our Degree after 2 years in Diploma. How could you? LOL

11. How about number four?
Pauline? Another daughter of mine XD Bubbly and good company for me.

12. Who is number two?
My cousin who's currently doing his SPM papers now, Gambatte-neh!

Finally, DONE

Procrastination at Its Best

2008-11-15T20:41:00.007+08:00

For the love of God, I've been procrastinating like F**k these few days. It's so unlike me at the moment (>.<)

Update over the last few days: Nothing (=_=)

I've been doing nothing much lately worth posting up on my blog. Apart from usual daily craziness, it had been monotonic. Until, I started taking pictures.(>.<)

Late classes + Long hours + Sleep Deprived = Gaying around

Sales and Negotiations Class almost over

The Fun Starts!! Ee Fen feeling left out.. all attention of the boys!

Look at the faces of Shaun and Ruiz (>.<) oh yea, Kenny was under everybody else!! Abraham wasn't allowed to join in the fun LOL

Look at Adrian's posture! XD like he's forcing himself on Zhi Phin! And Zhi Phin is LOVING it!!

What a bunch of lovely 'Guys'

Conclusion?

Great group mates + Crazy activities = Option B rocks!

Healing Wounds

2008-11-10T17:18:00.003+08:00

At last, the days of suffering is nearly over. No more fever, no more headaches, no more body aches and no more rashes! YAY! Sore throat is almost gone too. It had been one week of pure suffering. Medication also didn't really help much, all thanks to my own immune system XD

But then again, it had been almost a year since I last got sick, badly. All the antigens and antibodies in my body were all getting lazy and fat o.O Think this incident will toughen them up once more to fight another battle (hopefully not too soon >.<)

Well, so what's new? I admit, I had been procrastinating like HELL this whole of one week. I actually had alot of things backlogged, but, what the heck? Sick people deserve rest! XD I ended up backlogging it even further. Even my blog! (=_=) I don't even blog often already. HAHA. Too much influence from other fellow bloggers on unregular blog updates. XD

So what else then? Entrepeneurship was a so-so event, and managed to hand up assignments on time SO far. Sigh, more to come I expect. And they say college life is easy? (>.<) And right, exams and assessments are up next. I think I'm gonna hang for this term end LOL So GG-fied!

I noticed that I've been using alot of words that others use, is it me who's the influencer or I'm being influenced? Hmm..

Triple Whammy

2008-11-08T13:12:00.002+08:00

It all started last Saturday, where I was already feeling a little feverish and tired. It escalated like crazy on Sunday and eventually went to see a doctor on the next day itself. The doctor just gave me pain and fever meds, so I thought it wasn't serious at all.

Then, Wednesday, I started to develop sorethroat, that's when my fever is gone. As the sorethroat worsen, my fever came back again. Started gargling and even to a point only 1 stick a day, I really don't wanna risk inflamming it up again. Even swallowing water is painful for me.

I thought the worst is over, but no.. Yesterday, I developed rashes on my palms and feet, it's not itchy, it's freaking painful. I can't clench my fist nor stretch them. Worse part? It's slowly spreading. Already had meds for it, so hopefully for the better.

I wanna get better. I hate being sick.

Nightmare before Christmas

2008-11-06T19:53:00.002+08:00

First Issue

For the last two nights, I had been having nightmares. Just not normal nightmares, but I feel 'bassy beats' pumping into my head plus songs getting played over and over and OVER again for no apparent reason! And after that? Couldn't sleep again until I forced myself to be tired.

Never had the idea what is actually wrong with me.

Second Issue

I take back all I've said that this term is boring and slow. NOW, like a freaking avalanche all is coming down on us, assessments, assignments and projects non-stop for the whole week already. And I don't know what to expect for next week. It's bad enough I have 2 assignments backlogged already, and God knows how many more coming up on me fast.

Now I wished I had Hermione's time saver =_=

Third Issue

It never had been harder. But it's still a learning process. Everybody is bound to learn something new. Everybody will have to pick themselves up after they fall. In my case, I'm halfway on either side, neither exulted nor fallen. Plus with the air currents making me bobbing up and down like a stupid balloon. Some accused me for being stupid, some on the other hand encouraged me on. I feel I'm the one who's in control of my life. Advices are good only to a certain extent. In the end, we still have to decide, which road is the best. And until 'you' decide to give us a chance, things are that we would not see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I wished we gave each other a chance

Sickness Beckons

2008-11-03T20:27:00.002+08:00

I'm SICK
finally
after so long

Been a year I guess?

High Fever
Body Aches
Headaches

Makes me feel
Like I'm really 24 =_=

My brains
were almost fried
to the point
scrambled like eggs

Worst part?
Tonnes of assignments
and assessments coming up

Can't even rest in peace
Shucks

CHEATED and HANGED

2008-11-02T14:10:00.003+08:00

Scene 1

Started with a pleasant day in fact, until me, JF and Nick headed to have some drinks at Cova again. This time, we all shared one glass of Kilkenny. Well, things were pretty good till I've called for the bill. I got a shocked when I was supposed to pay RM287 for 8 glasses of Kilkenny apart from Jf's Aglio Olio and Hot Chocolate. It was F**king OUTRAGEOUS. I complained and I told the server I wanted to see the person-in-charge.

Let me introduce you to the person-in-charge that night. He came to the table wearing a aura of defiance and pig headed stubbornness and stood with his arm crossed. WTF? You think you are the bouncer of this place? It's ok, nevermind, I'll reason with him. But, NO, he just kept shaking his head and pointing his finger at me and at the bill. What kind of negotiation is he pulling off? By the end of it, I was so F**king PISSED and that spoilt my whole mood for the night.

Lesson learnt? : Don't go back to Cova's, they had lost a valuable customer. Idiots

Scene 2

After Cova, picked JK and headed to send JF home. At this point of time, I was slightly tipsy. I think I can hold up, hopefully. First game, 18 kills 45 deaths. HUH? Something's wrong here. Too much deaths already. And those players were so gay, as thought like they cant be killed. Remembered JK complaining to me about it also.

So continued playing till 330, and headed out for a meal. I remembered I've not eaten yet, only had a late lunch. Once I stood up, my goodness, I've never felt this kind of pain in a long time in my head. It's like the feeling of HANG OVER after a whole nite of partying. Maybe because of my condition PLUS fast paced game COD4 PLUS I was tired. Yeah, congrats to me so far. =_="

Lesson learnt? : Alcohol and COD4 don't mix, do it at your own risk.

Summary

After all that I've been through this weekend, I can conclude, it wasn't one of the best weekend for me, quite close to being the worst of all weekends in 2008. Best part? It's the 1st day of November, 4 more weekends to go then hopefully, December will be a good month for me.

I just need somethings to go my way.

Down but not Out

2008-10-31T23:03:00.005+08:00

Been a month of mixed feelings for me, things going on in college and among other issues that I'm currently dealing with at the moment. Crossroads opened up, along with more decisions to make. And it doesn't get any easier, knowing what lies before me.

Worse still, I'm still disoriented. Feelings fluctuating like crazy at the moment. I think I'll just sit back, eat some popcorn and watch things just flow by. Given the fact, I'm sure I'm not gonna enjoy it a single bit.

The Way - Clay Aiken

There's something bout the way you look tonight,
There's something bout the way that i can't take my eyes off you.
There's something bout the way your lips invite,
maybe its the way that i get nervous when your around.
And I want you to be mine
and if u need a reason why,

[Chorus:]
It's in the way that you move me,
and the way that you tease me,
the way that I want you tonight,

It's in the way that you hold me,
and the way that you know me,
when I can't find the right words to say,
You feel it in the way,
you feel it in the way.

Theres something bout how you stay on my mind,
theres something bout the way that I whisper your name when I'm asleep
Oh girl, no.
Maybe its the look you get in your eyes.
Oh baby its the way that makes me feel to see you smile.
And the reasons they may change
but what i'm feeling stays the same.

[Chorus]

I can't put my fingers on just what it is that makes me love you, you baby.
So don't ask me to describe,
I get all choked up inside,
ust thinking bout the way.

[Chorus]

There's something bout the way you look tonight.
There's nothing more to say then,
I feel it in the way.

My date with McFlurries

2008-10-30T00:40:00.003+08:00

It was not bad

really not bad at all

But, can't be compared

to the ever reigning

Cornetto McFlurry

THAT was the BOMB!

Mudpie and Berries

I think

my preference

would lie on

Mudpie McFlurry

But mix them

Do it at your own risk!

Joining my date

with the McFlurries

as lamp posts

Would be Mr Fillet-O-Fish

and Miss Coke

WHY? WHY?

Why no more McShaker Fries!?

Its too cruel for me! (T_T)

I love them to bits!

but NO...

Uncle Golden Arches

have to remove them!

That's it

no more CRAVINGS

for McDs

for the time being

Emo already

Let me mourn for McShaker Fries...

It's Inevitable

2008-10-29T01:52:00.002+08:00

I'm speechless
but my mind is working
Overtime

I'm resolved
I've made up my mind
I stand resolute

I'll wait till time ends
I'll wait till the end
I'll wait, regardless of the odds

I find it worthwhile

Don't think otherwise
nor be forced to do something
I don't want you to do anything
I just want things to go smoothly

Sorry for being an inconcivable bastard
but I stand true to my words
I am who I am, and not for what I've become

So sit back, and let time tell
For I still find hope in us
Trust in me, is all I ask

Give us a chance
I know that is a big effort from you
Decide, only
when the time is right

I hope and pray
it will work out well
I've given my all
I will never let go

I really, really do

Bah! Another TAG

2008-10-28T17:39:00.004+08:00

Rules:

-The rules of the game get posted at the beginning
-Each player answers the questions about themselves
-At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog. NO TAG BACKS!

Starting time : 5.41pm

Name : Terence Toh
Sisters : One
Brothers : None
Shoe size : 6.5-7.5, methinks
Height : 5 feet 7? should be around there
Where do you live : USJ2/5L

Have you ever:

Fallen asleep at school : Too many to remember
Broken someone's heart : Definately
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : Yes, I do

Who was were the last person;

You danced with : Can't remember, getting too old already
Last made you smile : Jasmin Lim =)
You last yelled at : At Po, the panda for being an ass in COD4

Random

Do you like your hand-writing : Nope, doesn't go with my confidence
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : My 'special' one
Are you a friendly person : Most of the time
Do you have any pets : Used to, Brandy (spitz mix mongrel)
What are you doing right now : Stoning
Can you handle the truth : Always ready and prepared
Are you closer to your mother or father : Mom
Do you eat healthy : Don't intend to, Sinful foods are the best
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to : My 'special' one, which I think today is not a really good day

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:

- Had my first girlfriend >.<"
- Joining the Onn Soon gang
- Started wearing my pants halfway up my ass
- Still sleeping with my parents
- Learnt how to drive secretly

5 places I have lived in (or am living in) :

- Subang Jaya
- Malacca
- Penang
- Singapore
- Klang

5 people I tag:

- Jasmin Lim (up to you whether would you wanna do or not)
- Tristan Ng
- Cheryl Ong
- Beatrix Ong
- Jocelyn Toh

Weekend of Suprises

2008-10-26T14:51:00.003+08:00

I'm too old for suprises, try to let me know before hand if there's one coming up XD

Surprise No 1:
Clubbing was, well, a tad disappointing. Apart from waiting for a long time, drinks were short and we had some 'casulties' too. There was an incident that happened then also but stayed there as well, to quench the news from spreading like bush fire.

Surprise No 2:
Turns of events happened between me and my *ahem*. Things turned out well, and I can say I'm surprised that it did turn out so well. Had met up over the past two days for drinks and hopefully, things will work according to plan. XD

Surprise No.3:
TARC Reunion. 2 years lapse. Surprised Christine can't make it but expected Kevin to FFK last minute again =_=" Andrew almost ended up paying for the bill, for arriving 'fashionably' the latest. None the less, went to Cova, 1 level below Starbuck, The Gardens, Midvalley for dinner. FREE FLOW OF KILKENNY'S FOR ONLY RM 68++! XD Promotion ends on Nov 9th, anybody wanna go for seconds?

Overall, it had been one eventful weekend, plus with the twist of drama here and there to spice things up. Life is SO not dull after all XD

Sleepless in Subang

2008-10-22T17:10:00.004+08:00

Two nights being sleepless makes me feel like Balanar =_="

All of the sudden hyper, then sleepy, and then hyper again.

Total of hours slept of the past two nights :
3 hours and 30 minutes

O.O

I think tomorow I'll be like this in kitchen class LMAO

Therefore, I think I should sleep like this tonight >.<"

Haha XD

Tag Again?

2008-10-21T17:08:00.002+08:00

1. What is the relationship of you and her/him?
Friends so far LOL?

2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him?
Independent, Quick witted, Strong-willed, Sharp Talker, Deceiving? =)

3. The most memorable things she/he had done for you.
Handed me my wins on a platter when we played mind games with each other. *lala*

4. The most memorable things she/he have said to you.
*Don't let her GO*

5. If she/he become your lover, you will..
o.O Is this another one of your mind games? =_="
I know you'll read this!

6. If she/he become your enemy, you will..
Make her submit to me LOL!

7. If she/he become your lover, she has to improve on..
Have not gotten the chance to try yet, will update on this later on *HAHA*

8. If she/he become your enemy, the reason is..
She lost too many times on our mind games =)

9. The most desirable thing to do on her/him is?
Hmm.. I wonder.. *Horns growing from head*

10. The overall impression of her/him is..
Talk to her and you will find out

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you?
Annoyed *haha* Because of my sharp tongue!

12. The character of you for yourself is?
Dumb but not stupid? o.O

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
My height =_="

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
Myself now, too used to this body already.

15. For the people who care about you and likes you, say something about them.
Thanks for all the support, ups and downs, will be there for you as you had done for me.

Ten people to tag :
Pauline Sim
Amber Tan
Tristan Ng
Jocelyn Toh
Mabel Spykerman
Joon Jiet
Cason Cheong
Cheryl Ong
Beatrix Ong
Constance Yap

Who is no.2 having a relationship with?
Iker Cassilas, my son-in-law, as according to her *LOL*

No.3 a male or a female?
LOL, Guess bah!

If no.7 and no.10 were together, would it be a good thing?
Not really, one too relaxed, one too hyper-ed

How about no.5 and 8?
Couldn't imagine my cousin as a lesbian =_="

What is no.1 studying about?
Higher Diploma in Hotel Management, Option A, is this the full name of it?

Is no.4 single?
Sorry, Off the rack already

Say something about no.6.
Damn nice guy. Scared of me, physically and mentally! *LOL*
Because I kept testing his food knowledge and raping him at the same time as punishment ^_^

TAG time!

2008-10-21T16:27:00.003+08:00

Instructions :
Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question,make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. Name your best traits
None, I suppose >.< Maybe charming (o.O), slick talker, old and wise?

2. If you have the chance, what would you probably say to your beloved one?
Tough one, I think I'll say 'You are the best thing that could ever happen to me!'

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you?
I'm not too sure that they would want to be stranded with me
*Hahaha*

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most and with whom?
Rome perhaps? With someone that I had dedicated my life to.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Financial issues out the window and enough to spend for the next few generations! ^(oo)^

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Unless the world works without money, why not?
*Wanna barter my chicken for your cow? o.O*

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Those whom I had known through out my life

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Serious? o.O Settle 'hutang', buy new car, treat friends for dinner (real good one)

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
I would not want to risk the chance slipping away, confessing would be 50% chance of success, if I didn't, it would had been 100% chance of regret.

10. List out the good points of the person who tagged you.
Does she had good points? o.O
*ROFL*
Ok, ok, she does, independent, sharp talker, quick mind, steadfast friend.

11. What am I doing now?
What a stupid question to ask.... =_="

12. What is your ambition?
Become an automotive engineer, alas, blown away dream

13. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
Two-face, Irresposible, Unrealiable, Two-timers

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
God? Family, Friends, My life?, 'Special One'?

15. Are you a shopaholic or not?
If I had the money.... $_$

16. What do you see when you look into a mirror?
Myself? o.O What else or rather, Who else?
*Haha*

17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
All problems? None existing yet, sorry

18. What's your impression about this person who tagged you?
Expressive, Open-minded. Let me dig for more bad habits first =X

19. What's your definition of love?
Love is sacred, Love is blind, Love is all forgiving, Love is self-sufficient, Love conquers all, Love last a lifetime, Love is give-and-take, Love is selfless, Love is above anything else.

20. What are your hopes?
Only two at the moment, first, good results in whatever I do, second, secret =)

Tagged next
1. Jocelyn Toh
2. Cheryl Ong
3. Beatrix Ong
4. Tristan Ng
5. Amber Tan
6. Pauline Sim
7. Mabel Spykerman
8. Constance Yap

Super Long Lost Video =_=

2008-10-21T12:07:00.005+08:00

Sore throat + people bugging me to get better = Worst drink I could possible have

My biatch downing Wasabi in a betted dare

Dinesh downing it like a chick

Lastly, Lonely Yi Shan National Geographic Series

Quit?

2008-10-21T01:51:00.003+08:00

Hmm..
This is gonna be
an uphill climb for me

Doing this
is so not easy
Trust me
All those advertisements
enhancements to help detox
are bullsh*t

Been there, done that
Managed to stay off it
for 2 years
Heck, those were the times
when it was still RM5.40

Boy, I missed those days

Cutting down is more likely
Giving it up is hopeless
for now

20s to 14s
Think that would be the first step

Well, it's the first step after all

No, I can't take too big a step
I got short legs >.<"
Dammit, too lame already
Learnt that from the best too

Haha..

The first step is always the hardest
Hopefully, it gets easier
But then again
with 'excellent' friends
I know what they would do best =_=

Sigh (Thank God for them?)

All the best to me
no longer trying to cut
5 minutes of my life anymore

*I hope I can*

Fall For You

2008-10-19T21:09:00.006+08:00

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

Hope vs Prayer

2008-10-18T19:12:00.002+08:00

Hopes
Everyone had hopes
Good hopes and sometimes
Bad ones? =X

But does everybody
had a prayer?
I doubt it
Only done when in dire straits

Hope can be described
as words
Prayer
as paper

As we penned our 'words'
on a piece of 'paper'
and send it to 'somebody'
in anticipation
of a reply

It's logical right?

That is how
hope and prayer works

I do have hopes
Hopes to succeed in life
Giving better lives for my children
Better than what my parents gave me

I also have hopes
on finding this 'special' one
Thank God, I found 'her'

With this I hope
all will work well
As we can only plan
But it's only God
who decides on its success

I know I'm a nobody
But I'll be a somebody
someday, somehow

Non the less
striving for the sake of others
is more logical to me
than striving for my own

This is my hope
simple and sweet
yet hard to achieve
at the same time

Ironic isn't it?
It's life after all

-TAG-

2008-10-17T16:15:00.009+08:00

Of all tags, I really hate this one the worst =_=

RULE: Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things / habits / little known facts about yourself.People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird habits / things / little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.NO TAG backs!

Here goes :

1. I snore when I sleep (crap), quoted from a friend, like a big rig truck blaring past you =_=''

2. I've never gotten so drunk till I can't remember anything at all

3. I drool sometimes.. o.O

Can I stop? >.<

4. I easily lose weight and have a hard time putting them back on (Methinks I have a giant worm in my stomach =X)

5. My last nickname is Bonsai (short and old =P *pbbtt*)

6. I'm a sucker for shoes (keep buying new shoes)

7. I love Coke to obsession

8. Coffee is effectless on me, so is tea, or chinese tea

9. My ex-s all ended up the same path

10. I'm already addicted to tattoo-ing o.O

I don't know what else is weird about me =_="

11. I used to see phantoms around my room (Yes, it's true, 2 children)

12. Back in high school, I was part of a gang

13. I'm recollecting my Transformers collection -again-

14. I started smoking since 13 (amazing 11 years experience! o.O)

YES! Last one!

15. I'm not who I am, know me better and find out yourself

TAG TAG TAG!!
1. JASMIN LIM *hahaha*
2. Jocelyn Toh
3. Cheryl Ong
4. Amber Tan
5. Pauline Sim
6. Mabel Spykerman
7. Joon Jiet
8. Amy Tan
9. Ellie Chee
10. Sarah Kate Lee

Better make sure you guys do it ya? >.<

Loyalty, in times like This?

2008-10-17T00:58:00.007+08:00

I'm sure
all of us
experience disloyalty
in a way

I've been listening
to so SO many people
doing this detestable act
over and OVER again

Why some don't learn
that loyalty is essential?
Trust, Faith in the other

Or is there none for times like this?

I still find there's hope
for loyalty in this world
Pledging myself
that I'll never walk down this path

I can't bear to live
the fact that I've been unloyal
The guilt would had been so great
that it'll be unbearable to look
upon the eyes of the person
that I had betrayed

Are humans that greedy?
Looking for something else
while they had their hands full?

I've always been subject to disloyalty
As the matter of fact
Accused for an accursed act
Being caught in the wrong situation
While I had been the innocent by-stander

I did not do it!

Why people don't take my word?
Am I that untrustable?
Is it my nature itself
to draw conclusion from my random acts?

I've been subjected
for far too long
and don't intend to
be in that position again

If 'you' are reading this
trust me
I won't betray 'you'
trust me
'You' won't regret it
trust in me

I Can't Find It

2008-10-15T22:06:00.003+08:00

There's something missing
I don't know what it is

But I do know that
it's something of value to me
something sentimental
something that i'm emotionally attached to

Strange thing is
I don't know what it is

I think it's connected
in my personal circle
Or yet to be introduced
in my personal circle

This feeling
I don't know what it is

Am I supposed to feel this way?
What am I supposed to do?
I don't want it to end in failure
again

My senses tell me that I'm near
I still don't know what it is

As I start to understand it better
I realised there's more to it
than meets the eye
Never be judgemental

I think I'm getting closer
I know what it is already

I think I'm going to do it
I think it's what's best
I think if I don't do it
I'll regret it for life

I've found you
I'm not gonna let you go

Next Step in Life

2008-10-14T22:07:00.005+08:00

Adulthood
I hate that term
But it's inevitable

To the very least
It comforts me
Knowing I'm not the only one
Going through this

It's really scary to learn
how to be an adult
It's equally frightening to learn
what lies in store as an adult

But to look at it
from outside the box
You'll see what it takes
to be an adult

*Sigh*

Being an adult
Knowing what responsiblity is all about
How important to be reliable
The value of money
The essense of time management
Earning others' trusts

All these and more
to come

Being an adult makes me realise
what, where, when, and how
life is about

Opening my eyes on this
will just encourage me
to turn away
with my tail between my legs

Time to grow up
Independency is beckoning

Just face the brunt of it
and live life to the fullest

We've got only one life to live for
after all

Happy

2008-10-13T20:04:00.003+08:00

I've no idea why am I feeling in such a good mood today
Even though last night itself
I've heard about problems from 2 friends of mine

It's not like I'm saying I'm happy
over their problems

I'm just having a weird happy feeling all day today
Lucky?
I really want to know why am I so happy today

But, then again
I rather not spoil the mood if something unwanted pops up =)

Tattoo felt good all day
Even my parents admired it!

(They actually did! o.O)

Some 'good' friends
just 'conveniently' forgotten about it
Patting where it hurts most

Some friends huh? haha..
You know who you are!

=D

Tattoo

2008-10-12T20:01:00.016+08:00

Finally, after a 6 month period of hesitating for a tattoo had finally ended today. Picked Amber (photographer of the day!) and went straight to Inked Studio outside Sunway Pyramid. Was having a lot of thought on my mind on the way there. Blasted rain created a scene for all roads! Accidents astream and lots of Keh-poh drivers (as usual). Luckily, the rain stopped after sometime, and I even found a good parking spot near the studio.

Then I thought to myself, 'Even God wanted me to get this tattoo done!' Haha..

Let the pictures bear testimony to what I've been through for the last 1 and half hours.

Getting ready for some pain

Benny prepping me up

Stamp of approval

Go!!! Let the Pain begin!

seriously, it does hurt, but addictive at the same time =)

Benny working his magic on me (sounded quite wrong) =_=

Halfway timeout, I need a fag

Who says you can't enjoy during a tattoo session?

Cleaning in Progress

F**king painful sensation when alcohol hits

Done! It's DONE! *whew*

Lesson learnt? : Another one coming up is in the works! Haha.. This time on the leg!

Thanks to Amber for her company and camera, and Benny for doing a fantastic job!

Reliability

2008-10-11T18:16:00.003+08:00

Is it that hard to be reliable?
Is it that hard to do follow-ups?

I realised that a lot of people just don't
Why is it so hard then?

Is it important to be reliable?

You bet it is

It's like making promises
And failing to keep it

Reliability = Being Responsible
If someone just can't up-keep the promise
Why bother making the promise in the first place?

Understood, if it happens once or twice
Due to being busy, or just 'slipped thru'

But at the fact
Happened so so many times

How can we trust that person
What more when they say
'I give you my word'?

Procrastinators

*Sigh*

Until they face it themselves
It's hard to make them realise
What goes around comes around?

You Bet

Who Are We Talking About Again?

2008-10-10T00:37:00.001+08:00

What Terence Means

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

-Blissfulness-

2008-10-09T20:51:00.002+08:00

*Yawn*
Sigh

What a 'blessed' day it was
Filled entirely with BOREDOM

This term is least expected to be boring
however
It's a myth

so far

We're supposed to be laden with projects
entrepeneurship program, quizzes
None so far

Even the Professional Report
due date?
Next February

I'm staring directly at my computer screen
for the past 3 hours

I'm at Boredom's MERCY!
I'm so tempted to go clubbing tonight
Crap

Got an early class tommorrow..

Even blogging can't save me from boredom
Not a single mail to check
I think
I'm non-existent in this world

Hopefully the weekend
has more in-store

Looking forward to it

Time for a fag

Refraction?

2008-10-08T16:34:00.013+08:00

I realised my blog is quite dark and depressing..

=_=

Thanks to all those 'very helpful' opinions
I've been voted 'MOST EMO BLOGGER EVER' ~!

-Whiskey Tango Foxtrot-
=_="

Hightime to brigthen up the pages!
Change the wall paper!
Reformat the codes for more vibrant colors!

Too much effort had been done..
Screw changing a thing!

Got a shock when one of my friends (Zoe)
told me she 'tengah emo-ing'

soon after reading my blog

o.O

then i realised she 'emo-ing' 'bout something else..

*FALSE ALARM! STAND DOWN!*

I need to find a way!
Easiest solution?

ADD PICTURES! =)

Anybody STILL want me?

look at how we sat in the car.. =_="

Yes, C'est moi

(after some itchy fingers edited my picture)

Spot the not (WTF was I doing there??)

No more alcohol..

Returning to our grassroots!

Faggots UNITED

Fact 1 : Camwhore noob

Fact 2 :

Old Body, Young Heart, Screwed-up Mind

-Sleep also no peace-

Tsk
No wonder I'm always so EMO

God Who?

2008-10-07T20:04:00.010+08:00

*WARNING: Criticism ahead, don't say I didn't warn YOU*

Dear Landlord-living-upstairs
how do You get people, lambs to accept You?
In return, teach me how?!

If that was the question, I'm so crucified
yes, it's undeniable that I do hold some grudge against You

but none too serious

but back to the real world
I'm just human after all
born with my birthday-suit, conscience
most of all, FREE WILL

I was ever curious, Why let us decide?
Why allow us the chance to be wrong?
Why even allowing us to commit sins?
We're are all just too human

In fact, why were we
even bothered by You?
Why so much interest, and yet none at times?

Is this the meaning of hypocriticism?

Heck, I, for once want to do as I like
all thanks to my stupid conscience
to end it prematurely

If we suffer, do You think it'll do You good?
What would we learn from it?
Pain? Depression? Reflection?

Or

Just a plain Sadistic game? hmm..

I'm not too sure myself

Sorry for all that I've done
for I'm beyond redemption
sorry for all that I'm about to do
for I've yet to rekindle the fire

Don't tell me that You'll me there

Please, No empty promises

I detest such acts

like all that have had happen before

wounds can never heal properly

that's why it's called

a scar

John 3:16

I Don't Understand..

2008-10-07T13:48:00.000+08:00

I really DON'T understand.
What am i supposed to DO
To make you feel me?

Some things can change
Some just can't
But I was sure, that this could change
But uncertain, for better or for worse

Let me tell you
One thing I do know

I'm
Not Desperate, but just informing

It takes a lot to break me
It takes a lot to hurt me
It takes really, REALLY a lot, to piss me off

Still, I keep it to myself
Burdening others is not my style
But then, I might be considered selfish
For not considering others' feelings

Yet back again,

I keep telling myself
I need to be stronger
Easier SAID than done

Trying to forget
Was never easy, trust me
Put yourself in my shoes and you'll see

And it's NEVER EASY letting you go

I can't let go.

P.S. This is not for any of my ex

Chapter 1 : Back to You-Know-Where

2008-10-05T15:43:00.000+08:00

First day of Term 5, what a screwed up time table! This is what happens if your college runs out of space and ends up with way TOO many students around its campus. To add things up, convenience wasn't the first agenda present on God-blessed-whoever that made this time table. Walk around the campus and you'll find many others tuning into an open 'complaint' channel. (>.<)

Tony C once invited me for his birthday bash at Sanctuary after work, a few weeks back. I was aghast when i saw the amount of bottles laid out on the tables in front of me. I did a quick head count and realised the numbers weren't adding up. Then, my nightmare came true, too soon in fact. Tony C told me I was the last to arrive and we weren't allowed to leave until we finished up all the liquor. Whiskey Tango Foxtrot?? 12-14 dudes have to FINISH 10 bottles of JW Black Labels and 4 bottles of Henessys??

ARE YOU KIDDING ME???

I was already trying a way to worm myself out of this. Guess what? All of us, yes, all of us managed to finish it some how or rather. No prize guessing how we left that day, but it really was a miracle that I did managed to get home in one piece that night. Ah, let me rephrase that, wee early in the morning. A week after that, another party was on-going and I got invited once again, this time Amber's brother's 21st. You can imagine the look on my face once my eyes set on the 2 bottles of JW Black Label waving back to me from the table. Talk about backlash, and I'll refer you back to this. o.O

Darn, I loathe JW for the moment.