Orphanage

Yesterday we hit the orphanage as part of the 'criteria' required by the college to pass our Entrepeneur subject. Well, the conditions are depressing, but we hope our visit did actually lift them up alil bit. Let the pictures describe the visit.


Irene and Amie sharing a kid, literally! Check out the kid being split into two by a glitch XD


The kid in blue is damn LOA.. He just grabs any passer-by and Kiver got 'caught' by him for a full 20 minutes!


Shawn's reaction when we said he was to breastfeed the child.. HAHA..


This poor kid was fed through a tube, and the way the caretakers handle them was not a sight for the soft hearted.. really..


The next two pictures were actually taken by an orphan, she knows how to take pictures!


She really make me look good! XD


We had our moments also!


This wheelchaired bound girl pinches, high-fives and grabs anything that moves! She also likes to laugh alot!


Conclusion and lesson learnt?

Count your blessings and be thankful that you are 'normal' and have loving parents that won't give you up for anything in the world. The orphans deserve better, really.

Chocolates, 'Signature' Dishes and Advert

Took some pictures over the week, check it out.



These are the Cappucino Chocolate cups! Pricey but worth every cocoa powder in it! *I only ate the handle*


TORTOISE! XD


So many colors..


Roses and more Roses!


Pineapples! I really admire how they colored the pineapple skin on it~


Raspberry Hearts and...


Blueberry Hearts!


Then comes the 'signature' dishes from an 'amateur-chef-in-the-making' XD

I noticed that she was kinda artistic.

LMAO

Rather itchy hand also.

Try guessing what they are aite?



First 'Signature' Dish


Second 'Signature' Dish


And finally, I participated in the Shell Fuel Saving tips campaign and got MY picture on an advert in Shell! XD



See! Me in the red cap far left! XD

Up to My Neck

I want to go on a break! I want HOLIDAYS! I want to SLEEP!

I WANT I WANT I WANT I WANT!!

'Wake up Dumb Dumb'

"Who's that? Who are you? Why are you in my head??"

'Mine name is of no importance to thee. Thou shalt be dealt with a cruel blow if thine mind is not set towards thy ideals. It is mine regret that thou shalt die prematurely if this doth continues.'

"What?! GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!"

'It wilt be as thy wish so, for I can only do so much for thee. Take care mine son, guard thy mind and soul from being wretched from under thy nose. Thy heart hath already been captured, and no other ways to restore thy heart, unless, thy join me in My kingdom, till the end of days.

'As you say so la' (>.<)

I'm so bored that I came up with these archanic conversation. Too much fantasy reading already XD

*chop chop*

Time to get up and going!

An Emo Freak with Feelings

Why do people say that I'm an emo freak? (>.<) I certainly am not!

Might be due to the fact that projects and assessments are all piling up on me at the moment. Plus, with the ever persistant back aches that I have been experiencing since 2 weeks ago? It's really killing me T.T No wonder I'm abit moody.

Describe my feelings on my blog? o.O How so? Am I not expressive enough? Some feelings are meant to be private, and this blog is SO in the public's eye! But none the less, I'm as transparent as ever, all can see through me and that doesn't make me the world's best liar.

Luckily, I'm still wearing clothes XD

BAH! That was so RANDOM...

I'm so sick and tired of college work. This is definitely the most strenuous term I'm facing so far. Everything is backlogged. Even one for today. I wished I can cuddle up and sleep, and forget about the world for a moment. Let me rest my mind for a moment. Too many things swaying in and out of my puny cranium. I really need a break. Somewhere that doesn't remind me of college. Or simply, a nice comfy bed. Being at home is also not peaceful.

*I wished 'you' were here with me*

Wake up Stupid. Thy impeding doom is a-coming.

There goes the spoiler, anti-climax, potong steam, whatever-you-want-to-call-it. I want to procrastinate for another day.

Just one more, please?

Alas, the worst has hit, hopefully, I hope it's the worst. ANY more of it, I don't think I'll be a cocky bast**d any longer =)

*I just want to spend time with 'you'. I really do. Take care. Hugs*

Counting down the 1st day of next 7 days

Alone in the Dark

Being alone is terrible. I hate being alone. I despise the fact so much, that I even hate to have my meals alone. Not to point out the fact that I'm LOA (Lack Of Attention), but try to be in my shoes. It's also not to mention that I don't have friends, on the contrary, I have lots of caring ones. The loneliness is not felt physically, rather, mentally.

I don't want to be this way. I don't want to feel this way. The emptiness was briefly filled, never had I felt so glad and happy about it, but it would be vacanted soon, briefly for the least. During the brief moments, I felt the glimpse of light, like the one at the end of a dark and long tunnel. Now, as I walked on the shadowy path, the light still shines, but unlogically getting dimmer. I tried running to it, yet I can't catch up with it. I'm resolute enough not to give up. Somehow, it kept slipping through my fingers.

I know it's possible to work out. I know it, from the bottom of my puny little heart. However, the fact always remain. No dance is complete without a partner, nor no sound will be heard if only one hand is trying to clap. Help me understand better, why is it this way. I want things to work out. In fact, I'll go to hell and back to prove myself and my worth in this.

Sigh.

I hope and I pray, and all my prayers rests in God's palms, that it's possible to work this out together. Being all that I'm worth, I'm nothing in God's eyes. All that, adds to the gloom and emo-ness that had been clouding my mind at the moment. But, I'll remain steadfast and confident in the matter. Hopefully, this would last me though the end of days, or shorter, the end of my life.

I don't want to lose 'you'. 'You' know how I feel as well. 'You' know me well enough, close enough, I hope. Hope 'you' know that, it's never too late.

I hope that the month of November slip by quietly and December would be a new ray of light shining through my dim, colorless life.

-1.4.3-

BORED but yet Occupied

It's strange and ironic that I'm feeling so BORED at the moment, but as I am aware, there are alot of things for me to do or planned for the remainder of the month. Strange isn't it? Does it happen to you too?

I find that we can find time, only IF we want to find it. There's no such thing as no time, unless we procrastinate like crazy. Yes, we may be busy, but nobody is TOO busy. Try to find time to cherish life as it's short. Even though we may live up to a 100 years old, we aren't guaranteed before hand that we were 'supposed' to love till that old.

I wished I have more time to do things that I wanted to do. Like spending time with that certain 'someone' (provided IF she has time for me >.<), traveling to places that I sorely miss, hanging out with familiar faces that I have not seen for a long time and so many others. If I list it down, it would have probably flooded the page. But then again, who hasn't wished for more time before?

Where does time go? When did it even left us? Why is it in such a hurry? What pressing engagement is more important to it compared to us? How can we slow it down? These will the some of the questions that would had been better off not being answered. For I'm sure, our puny, little brains would take an eternity to understand or comprehend it. Time definitely has the upper hand in this one.

Time is of essence. Time and tide waits for no man.

Well, time to procrastinate abit to make it pass by faster XD

Condolences

Reaching out to Wong Choy Yee and family for the demise of her father. Even though I have not met him before, I'm sure he was a great dad, and had brought up my friend Choy Yee to great heights.

He'll be sorely missed by all whom had known him throughout his life and theirs.

Pray that the heavens receive him and let his family be relieved from grief and be glad that he's gone to a place where there's no suffering and pain. They will be reunited as a family, one day in the future.

For now, live out the rest of your lives to the fullest, for not knowing when it's our time. You'll never know when would be your last time to say goodbye to your loved ones.

Life is precious, don't waste it.

Missing You

This song is exactly how I feel at the moment. Dedicated to those who misses their loved ones.

Oh oh Oh I'm missin' you
Baby I'm missin' you

oh oh oh oh
Baby I'm missing you

Things'll never be the same without you...

What did I do to deserve this
I didn't even get one last kiss, from you
Oh baby God took your love from me
He needed an angel so it seems
I need to feel your hands all over me
I need to feel you kissing me
I need to feel you holding me
I need to feel your touch
Cause I miss your love so much
And I can't keep on living this way
I need you here with me
Why could he take you away, from me

It's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself

I would've given you anything
Just to make you happy
Just to hear you say, that you love me one last time
I'd go to hell and back over and over again
Just to prove to you how much I need you here
There is nothing that I wouldn't do
I'd cry for you
I'd lie for you
And there's no doubt that if I could take your place in heaven
I would die for you, yes I will
I would rather give up my life
Than to see tears in your eyes
I can't stand to see you cry

Cause it's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay babe
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself

I just don't know what to do with myself
I cant stand looking at those pictures on my shelf
Knowing it was just one week ago, i stood there and took that picture
There's just one thing that I wanna know
Why would God want to hurt me so bad,
Does He know how much it hurts to be missing you
Baby Im missing you
Baby Im missing you
I love you

Oh God damn it I love you
Why did he take you away... from me
Cause I love you so...
I miss you so much baby I just can't go on baby

Finally, Being Happy

It had been a while

since

I had been happy

I can truly say

that

I am happy at the moment

Things worked out great

even though

with some minor mishaps

in between

I just

don't want it to end

Let's give it a chance

for magic to happen

For I believe

this was meant to be

Let me lead you

down the road

Guide you

Protect you

Do all I can

and could

just

to make you happy

as how

You had made me happy

What a Day..

I couldn't even fathom how today would turn out. Firstly, woke up with a sorer back than ever, nonetheless, still had to get to college. Full day to boot. Had French listening test and was, well, overwhelmed by the obscure format and hard to understand French accent blaring out from the speakers. Even Ms Alvina wasn't helpful to at least provide a suitable reply to answer the second part of the exam. All she did was she just kept repeating that this was a listening test and so? LISTEN!

Sigh

What's next? Went for lunch at Padi and when my food came I pushed my chair back a little to avoid food stain on my clothes, my chair's leg got into a small, puny hole behind me and guess what? I shifted my weight on that leg and toppled backwards with my lower back kissing the floor first. Great! Friends were laughing hysterically at that point. The fall did aggrevate my back further, giving me not only shoulder and neck ache, but also lower spine too.

Sigh

Anything else? Going through the last two classes was painful for me. Lower back and upper all stiff and sore. Asked my friend to help give a crack at my lower back to help relieve abit of the pain but ended up getting it done wrongly. And I ended with an even sorer back. Luckily, class ended early due to another assessment and had decided to go fix my back with my hairdresser. Alas, she's closed today, I'm really having GoldFish Memory Syndrome (GMS). That's it, no help can do for my back for today.

Sigh

November is beginning to look bleak for me. Methinks, it'll be the longest month for me this year. Nice one la..

What? Another Tag? >.<

What a coincidence.. got tagged after visiting a 'dead' blog!! (>.<)

Rules?

NO TAG BACKS

10 years ago I was :

- In Form 2, and started behaving sloppily, baggy and dropping pants the craze going on then
- 1st year aniversary that I started smoking (=.=) Price that time was still RM 4.80!
- Had my 1st love, but didn't last long, she's older by a year XD
- Joined a gang, stupid move by the way
- the tallest among my friends (shut up, I know better NOW)

5 years ago I was :

- Flunked my Form 6, wasn't interested then.
- Met my 2nd ex along the way.
- Actually almost on the way to quitting smoking for 2 years.
- Being more truant and more hard headed.
- Started playing online games : RO and Maple (=.=)

1 year ago I was :

- Passed my Diploma with Congratulations from the Jury XD
- Got into my 1st major accident, best part? It was not my car. (>.<)
- Still in a relationship with my 3rd ex.
- Smoking like a chimney, remembered that alot of people tried to help me stop, instead, they started smoking as well now XD If you can't beat the system, Join IT!
- Realised that I'm a blardy old fart already (>.<)

Yesterday I was :

- Busy taking care of a sick person XD
- Reading part 2 of my Fantasy novels
- Enjoyed my McShaker Fries! Then sick person had to go home, I tapau-ed and got McSoggy Fries in the end (=.=)
- Blogging after procrastinating for so long.
- Out the whole day and morning.

5 most recent songs I listen to :

- Secondhand Serenade - Fall for You
- Trance Generators - Do You Want A Balloon?
- Baby Bash - Cyclone
- Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest
- My Chemical Romance - Famous Last Words

5 songs I know the words to :

- Secondhand Serenade - Fall for You
- 1st Lady - Missing You
- Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest
- Timberland - The Way I Are
- Breaking Benjamin - The Diary of Jane

5 ideal places to run away to :

- Some island with beautiful sandy beaches, clear blue water and great accomodation!
- Any major city in Japan
- Rome! Can do sightseeing at the same time
- Somewhere that you can be king of the lands XD
- No where, get into a car and hop from place to place, I'm supposed to be running right?

5 items I really want :

- Proton Satria Neo M-line / Perodua Myvi 1.3SXi SE (new) / A Turbo-ed Car
- Sony Ericsson w980 / Apple iPhone
- Limitless and no-need-to-pay-back Credit Card
- A state-of-the-art Laptop
- A American Pool Table (T.T)

5 things i should be doing now :

- Procrastinate on this TAG
- Eating my dinner
- Taking a shower, going out soon?
- Finish my 2nd part of my Fantasy novel
- Completing this stupid TAG

5 biggest joys in life :

- Having great friends I've met along the way.
- Succeeding with flying colors in exams.
- Meeting a person that I know is the 'One'.
- Knowing the fact that I'm already 24 and the responsibilities that comes along with it.
- Being independent bit by bit, away from parents' burden.

5 people im tagging :

- Beatrix Ong
- Jasmin Lim
- Cheryl Ong
- Pauline Sim
- Amber Tan

Mangkuk! Another Tag >.<

VERY NICE! Moi dumb dumb sister avoids all the flak I throw at her and she threw one back at me! NICE ONE LA! Make sure you prepare for some ass whooping when you get back home from your hole in Sabah..

No Rules for this one. Just answer the questions.

1. Do you think you're HOT?
What a question to start with. (>.<) erm.. erm.. am I hot? I think I should put a poll on my blog and let that decide.. But.. What the heck? I got thick skin, and that concludes that I WILL ADMIT that I'm HOT! ROFL

2. Upload your favourite picture of you

3. Why do you like that picture?
I like it because it's EMO! XD Just felt that this picture really reflect what I was thinking and feeling at that moment.

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
GOSH! I don't remember! (>.<) Speaking of which, I really crave for Pizza now!! (T.T)

5. The last song you listened to?
My Chemical Romance - Famous Last Words
Damn EMO-rocker song XD

6. What are you doing now besides this?
Reading Tenjou Tenge manga at www.onemanga.com and listening to songs and updating Facebook and checking over-dued e-mails.

7. What name would you prefer besides yours?
I think I'm too used to my name already, but considering the fact that alot of people mispronounced my name makes me wanna change it previously to Terry. Until I found out it was a chick's name (>.<) And thus I gave up.

People to tag:

- Jasmin Lim (do only after your exams)
- Tristan Ng
- Amber Tan
- Pauline Sim
- Mabel Spykerman

8. Who is number one?
A girl who definitely and without fail knows my weakspots (>.<)

9. Number 3 is having a relationship with?
An imaginary relationship with Iker Casillas (Hope I get the name right this time)

10. Say something about number five.
Mabel? Hmm, One of my daughters but had left and dumped us pursuing our Degree after 2 years in Diploma. How could you? LOL

11. How about number four?
Pauline? Another daughter of mine XD Bubbly and good company for me.

12. Who is number two?
My cousin who's currently doing his SPM papers now, Gambatte-neh!

Finally, DONE

Procrastination at Its Best

For the love of God, I've been procrastinating like F**k these few days. It's so unlike me at the moment (>.<)

Update over the last few days: Nothing (=_=)

I've been doing nothing much lately worth posting up on my blog. Apart from usual daily craziness, it had been monotonic. Until, I started taking pictures.(>.<)

Late classes + Long hours + Sleep Deprived = Gaying around


Sales and Negotiations Class almost over


The Fun Starts!! Ee Fen feeling left out.. all attention of the boys!


Look at the faces of Shaun and Ruiz (>.<) oh yea, Kenny was under everybody else!! Abraham wasn't allowed to join in the fun LOL


Look at Adrian's posture! XD like he's forcing himself on Zhi Phin! And Zhi Phin is LOVING it!!


What a bunch of lovely 'Guys'

Conclusion?

Great group mates + Crazy activities = Option B rocks!

Healing Wounds

At last, the days of suffering is nearly over. No more fever, no more headaches, no more body aches and no more rashes! YAY! Sore throat is almost gone too. It had been one week of pure suffering. Medication also didn't really help much, all thanks to my own immune system XD

But then again, it had been almost a year since I last got sick, badly. All the antigens and antibodies in my body were all getting lazy and fat o.O Think this incident will toughen them up once more to fight another battle (hopefully not too soon >.<)

Well, so what's new? I admit, I had been procrastinating like HELL this whole of one week. I actually had alot of things backlogged, but, what the heck? Sick people deserve rest! XD I ended up backlogging it even further. Even my blog! (=_=) I don't even blog often already. HAHA. Too much influence from other fellow bloggers on unregular blog updates. XD

So what else then? Entrepeneurship was a so-so event, and managed to hand up assignments on time SO far. Sigh, more to come I expect. And they say college life is easy? (>.<) And right, exams and assessments are up next. I think I'm gonna hang for this term end LOL So GG-fied!

I noticed that I've been using alot of words that others use, is it me who's the influencer or I'm being influenced? Hmm..

Triple Whammy

It all started last Saturday, where I was already feeling a little feverish and tired. It escalated like crazy on Sunday and eventually went to see a doctor on the next day itself. The doctor just gave me pain and fever meds, so I thought it wasn't serious at all.

Then, Wednesday, I started to develop sorethroat, that's when my fever is gone. As the sorethroat worsen, my fever came back again. Started gargling and even to a point only 1 stick a day, I really don't wanna risk inflamming it up again. Even swallowing water is painful for me.

I thought the worst is over, but no.. Yesterday, I developed rashes on my palms and feet, it's not itchy, it's freaking painful. I can't clench my fist nor stretch them. Worse part? It's slowly spreading. Already had meds for it, so hopefully for the better.

I wanna get better. I hate being sick.

Nightmare before Christmas

First Issue

For the last two nights, I had been having nightmares. Just not normal nightmares, but I feel 'bassy beats' pumping into my head plus songs getting played over and over and OVER again for no apparent reason! And after that? Couldn't sleep again until I forced myself to be tired.

Never had the idea what is actually wrong with me.

Second Issue

I take back all I've said that this term is boring and slow. NOW, like a freaking avalanche all is coming down on us, assessments, assignments and projects non-stop for the whole week already. And I don't know what to expect for next week. It's bad enough I have 2 assignments backlogged already, and God knows how many more coming up on me fast.

Now I wished I had Hermione's time saver =_=

Third Issue

It never had been harder. But it's still a learning process. Everybody is bound to learn something new. Everybody will have to pick themselves up after they fall. In my case, I'm halfway on either side, neither exulted nor fallen. Plus with the air currents making me bobbing up and down like a stupid balloon. Some accused me for being stupid, some on the other hand encouraged me on. I feel I'm the one who's in control of my life. Advices are good only to a certain extent. In the end, we still have to decide, which road is the best. And until 'you' decide to give us a chance, things are that we would not see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I wished we gave each other a chance

Sickness Beckons

I'm SICK
finally
after so long

Been a year I guess?

High Fever
Body Aches
Headaches

Makes me feel
Like I'm really 24 =_=

My brains
were almost fried
to the point
scrambled like eggs

Worst part?
Tonnes of assignments
and assessments coming up

Can't even rest in peace
Shucks

CHEATED and HANGED

Scene 1

Started with a pleasant day in fact, until me, JF and Nick headed to have some drinks at Cova again. This time, we all shared one glass of Kilkenny. Well, things were pretty good till I've called for the bill. I got a shocked when I was supposed to pay RM287 for 8 glasses of Kilkenny apart from Jf's Aglio Olio and Hot Chocolate. It was F**king OUTRAGEOUS. I complained and I told the server I wanted to see the person-in-charge.

Let me introduce you to the person-in-charge that night. He came to the table wearing a aura of defiance and pig headed stubbornness and stood with his arm crossed. WTF? You think you are the bouncer of this place? It's ok, nevermind, I'll reason with him. But, NO, he just kept shaking his head and pointing his finger at me and at the bill. What kind of negotiation is he pulling off? By the end of it, I was so F**king PISSED and that spoilt my whole mood for the night.

Lesson learnt? : Don't go back to Cova's, they had lost a valuable customer. Idiots

Scene 2

After Cova, picked JK and headed to send JF home. At this point of time, I was slightly tipsy. I think I can hold up, hopefully. First game, 18 kills 45 deaths. HUH? Something's wrong here. Too much deaths already. And those players were so gay, as thought like they cant be killed. Remembered JK complaining to me about it also.

So continued playing till 330, and headed out for a meal. I remembered I've not eaten yet, only had a late lunch. Once I stood up, my goodness, I've never felt this kind of pain in a long time in my head. It's like the feeling of HANG OVER after a whole nite of partying. Maybe because of my condition PLUS fast paced game COD4 PLUS I was tired. Yeah, congrats to me so far. =_="

Lesson learnt? : Alcohol and COD4 don't mix, do it at your own risk.

Summary

After all that I've been through this weekend, I can conclude, it wasn't one of the best weekend for me, quite close to being the worst of all weekends in 2008. Best part? It's the 1st day of November, 4 more weekends to go then hopefully, December will be a good month for me.

I just need somethings to go my way.